the door.

a sunny day,
so hot it hurt your eyes,
but humid enough to make your skin feel warm,
empty corridor,
strays of light shooting down from above,
a door at the end,
you reach the door,
what's inside?
adequate space, sufficient light, quiet,
an oasis of serenity - home sweet home.

when you say nothing at all

when you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating
this song ring well in my ear.

this is going to be quick,
of course it's valentine day,
already so many status update on facebook about it,
but no i won't say anything about valentine day,
yes, if you know me well, you would understand my silence.

and so on the other note,
it seems when you get involved too much,
you get to see the dark side,
i don't know how people deal with it,
but me - won't back off.

Somebody That I Used To Know

Somebody That I Used To Know by Gotye
just to show that im not anti-maintstream music,

people don't really shout on my wall anymore,
instead it's all filled with robot comments,
no wonder google earn so much from advertisement.
the last day of cny had just over,
and im glad that i didn't celebrate it,
not that im anti-social,
but just that i needed these experiences of being different,
class is starting,
clock is ticking,
life is going on,
i just wish that the void in my heart can ring up some nice tunes.

the world as i see it

the world as i see it, by Jason Mraz

been asked why i'm not celebrating CNY alot,
i got so annoyed,
you are not me,
how would you understand my definition of happiness?
in time im like free spirit,
but that is against my belief,
as every bit of enjoyment are traded with equal amount of pain,
in order to live with that,
i had stop searching for happiness,
as it's been there all along,
when you are able to enjoy every moment in time,
so i will celebrate CNY when it's convenient for me to do so.

Relax and lounge

found this instrumental jazz music on youtube,
i stop listening to mainstream now.

usually,
when my blogging count increased,
it mean im bored,
this time,
it's more like "posting something before" going off,
over time i am on quest to kill my boredom,
to feeds it with the excessive need to prove my existence,
one day,
25 alphabets knocked me off that track,
Boredom is the root of all evil - the despairing refusal to be oneself.
rendered me stunned for few days,
I am going to stop shaping myself,
into something else.

p.s. I'm working on my new year resolution.